A Good, Good father?

” And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

I have heard this verse alot and in my mind I think yes – I love God and i know he is good because what he offers… I love him because he saved me from a pit of despair that I was in. He turned my life’s trajectory from straight to hell to heaven. Only through Gods son Jesus is that possible, to have a relationship with him. The closer I get to God the more I see his goodness. But sometimes I get stumped.

Every 98 seconds someone in america is sexually assaulted. Every 8 minutes the victim is a child.

How can this ever be worked for good?

Someone told me Its not God that makes theses horrendous things happen to people. Its the devil. That because Adam and Eve made the choice to invite sin into this world- Satan is at work. While that did comfort me for a little while, knowing it wasnt God going around hurtin people and saying oh it will make you stronger. I started to think about the sins that have been done to me. All I could think about was those people who stand in front of people and tell their stories and say they are glad that tragic thing happened because they have been able to help so many other people go through what she went through. That just makes me mad. I am not usually a selfish person but I dont want to hear that the pain I experienced was solely to help someone else. If thats the case were all just Gods puppet perpetuating the issues and solving them.. or at least going around and issuing bandaids if you share the same scar as someone else.

If God doesnt cause these things, yes it helps me respect him more but does that mean he lets it happen?

If God is pure love then he cant possibly be wishing ill on us.

“What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will instead of a fish give him a serpent; or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!” Luke 11:11-13

If even people on earth deal with us kindly and in ways that are good how much more will our Heavenly Father. He will not hurt us and deceive us.

We chose sin. We have the consequences on our shoulders but God takes those burdens from us. We don’t have to bear them alone!

If we are adopted into God’s family then the devil cant take our soul he can try with all his might but we belong to the ONE TRUE KING.

I’ll end with this scripture and I pray it touches you and gives you hope just as it has for me.

We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed;”

2 Corinthians 4:8,9

‭‭“So death is at work in us, but life in you. Since we have the same spirit of faith according to what has been written, “I believed, and so I spoke,” we also believe, and so we also speak, knowing that he who raised the Lord Jesus will raise us also with Jesus and bring us with you into his presence. For it is all for your sake, so that as grace extends to more and more people it may increase thanksgiving, to the glory of God. So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison,”

‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭4:12-17‬ ‭‬‬

Im a sheep and you’re a sheep.

We are sheep.

In Ezekiel 34:31 it says: You are my sheep, human sheep of my pasture and I am your God.  

At church we were talking about some sheep and his shepherd. In this is a metaphor is a loving picture in what God does with us too as our good shepherd (John 10:11).  If a sheep keeps wandering off or doing things that put it in danger the shepherd will break its legs. I tell ya the animal lover inside me was immediately repulsed and aching after hearing this but after further explanation, my heart was touched. He breaks the lost sheep’s legs so that he can put the sheep around his shoulders to carry around for a few months so he can smell his good shepherd and learn his voice more completely as his bone is healing.

I find it so amusing that the Lord ALWAYS has the best timing. This was just what I needed to hear after “falling off” Gods good and perfect will for my life. And by falling off I mean I chose to talk to people from my past that only brought me pain back then – in hindsight of course I see how foolish it was to let this guy back in.But nonetheless when he texted me at 2am and wanted me to come over and “talk” I found myself numbly making the drive that I had made in tears the last time we saw each other. I was drawn in to his path of destruction yet again. I found myself feeling dependent to him and his presence in a short span of a week or two. I was putting my trust in him and telling him things that I should have been taken to God. One sunday morning I was feeling particularly guilty and shameful for being with someone I know wasn’t a man of God and I definitely didn’t want to marry. I was telling a friend about the feelings I was having and she told me :

We are dumb sheep.

We need a shepherd. WE HAVE ONE. So while I shouldn’t feel so terrible about veering off Gods path for my life, because the truth is at some point, everyone does. 1 Peter 2:25 says, For you were continually straying like sheep, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Guardian of your souls.

If I can let my guard down for this guy who just wants to use me, How much more should I lean into the Guardian of my soul? My prayer is to give into the Shepherd as my wounds heal by his loving hand and to listen to his voice and rest in his sweet embrace. So the next time I stray from his voice- maybe I wont go so far.

Welcome to My Blog

Im curious if everyone is as forgetful as me. I find myself re-learning things the Lord has taught me over and over. I have been told… ” you’re hard headed” or “thats life” and if it is then I wanted a place to remind me what the Lord has told me and possibly let you know you are not alone in the cycle of relearning.

I am such a verbal processor its not even funny. So this is another outlet for me. Im sure my friends will be thankful Im letting thoughts out here and letting a little less out in their ears! I can tell you now there will be alot of grammatical errors and things that may only make sense to me so dont hate too harshly.